Is It Bad To Not Care Anymore?

My husband is notorious for doing what he wants, when he wants. Seeing who he wants, and pretty much telling me to fuck off if I complain. I'm sure if the foot was on the other foot, he wouldn't be as accommodating as I am. It used to really get me upset, especially when he would go to dog shows (to which I either wasn't invited or at a time when I couldn't get off work) and meet up with this woman. They talk on the phone and text a lot, supposedly about dogs. It is probably just innocent, but it still sticks in the back of my mind that something more could be going on. With that being said, it seems at time passes, I become more lethargic about the whole situation. I won't say that I don't care, per say, what my husband does, but it just doesn't bother me like it used to. This past weekend he went to a dog show that was 14 hours away. Well, there was no way I could take that many days off work, so I stayed home. He was gone for 5 days total. I was completely relaxed while he was gone. I did what I wanted to, I even managed to read an entire book. Am I a bad person for not really caring that he was gone, and with his dog "friend" woman at that? I'm not sure how all this makes me feel.

Cell Phone Talkers

My husband has absolutely no idea why I was so irritated after lunch today. Ummm, maybe it's because he got a phone call (from another woman, mind you) when we were walking into the restaurant. He proceeded to talk the ENTIRE time we were eating. Any paying. And riding home. If I wanted to eat alone, I would have gone alone. Yes, it irritated me that I just had to sit there staring at my plate while he chatted away with another woman (the story of this woman is a blog post for another day). I feel I had every right to be irritated. Unfortunately I had left my phone in the car so I couldn't even browse Facebook while I ate. When I finished my meal considerably sooner than he did (apparently you eat faster when you are not talking), I asked him for his keys so I could go get my phone. This made HIM mad! You talk to someone the whole time we are eating and then get mad at ME because I want to go get my phone instead of me just staring ahead? Grrrrr! To me this is extremely rude behavior. I would not do this to him, although, the next meal we have I may find someone to call.

As I am typing this my husband is talking to one person on our home phone while texting someone else on his cell phone....is there an end to this madness?

MY Truth, That Is

I doubt anyone will even read this blog; it is solely for my purposes. I feel like I have no one to really talk to about my problems and just need to get my feelings out there. This is a diary, of sorts, for my own benefit. If you are reading this, perhaps something you read in here will help you. Maybe it will entertain you. Or maybe it was useless for me to even say that because no one is actually reading this anyway!